We decided June 7, 2018, would be the day we celebrate the life of our only son, and eldest of 3 children, Joseph Anthony Suarez. Joe’s life began on August 31, 1990, and he went home to be with God on May 28, 2018. As I reflect on June 7, 2018, two words come toContinue reading “A Celebration of Joe’s Life”
Category Archives: Grieving Mom
Joe’s Eulogy by Kolby Halley
Joe’s Eulogy
Holding On
The last day of 2020 started 7 minutes ago. It’s 12:07 am in the Pacific time zone. (Note: I wrote this on New Year’s Eve.) I completely forgot today is New Year’s Eve, I guess because it’s not such a big deal anymore. Celebrations of any kind are not the same anymore. It’s so quietContinue reading “Holding On”
When I Close My Eyes
Losing Joe has changed my life, there is so much of him missing every minute of every day. Joe gave my life air. Sometimes, I lay in his bed and I close my eyes and I imagine him walking into his room asking me, “Ma, what are you doing? Why are you in my room?Continue reading “When I Close My Eyes”
Crying Hurts
Tonight I drove by our house on Kamloops, parked my car across the street from our house we lived in for 15+ years and I cried. I cried as I imagined you walking out the front door. I cried as I could see us all eating dinner in the dining room. I cried as IContinue reading “Crying Hurts”
FEAR
Fear, does it scare you? If yes, what is your greatest fear in life? Name just one. Fear makes thinking hurt. Sometimes it hurts so hard I can’t breathe. I often fall to my knees …in silence. Fear is real. Life. It can blindside a family in a blink. Fear, what do we most fearContinue reading “FEAR”
764 Days
I woke up this morning (6/30/2020) at 4:00 a.m. and couldn’t go back to sleep. My mind began racing. I picked up my phone and looked at the date, 764 days. It’s been 764 days of life without our Son, Joseph. Feels like 7 hrs. 64 minutes, or 7 minutes-64 seconds, what it doesn’t feelContinue reading “764 Days”
Losing Joe - Finding My Way Thru Grief 